I have not always been who I am now. It was a long and painful road and I am proud of where I now stand. Here is a short overview.

I struggled with anxiety and depression since age 10. I felt alienated, couldn’t make sense of the world around me and like I didn’t belong anywhere. As a teen and young adult, the feelings only grew stronger.

I was feeling aimless. I studied business because my family and professors told me I was intelligent and that with a business degree, I could do anything. Studying business at university were the worst years of my live. I felt completely miserable. I felt visceral disgust towards the classes I had to study, making it extremely difficult to engage with the material or memories anything. I was riddled by guilt, awkward in my body and couldn’t let myself enjoy this time.

I come from a lineage of men who suffer from depression. My father, his father and his father before him all suffer from depression. After doing the work, I have found love for life, learned to clarify my values and did the work it takes for one to live according to them. While I am still not the most cheerful human, I am now playful, laugh at least once a day and have not felt depressed or like the world was crushing me or trying to vomit me since I am 25. Most importantly, I have mental and emotional space to take in my family and community and offer support to others. It is not anymore all about my suffering.

After painfully finishing my business management studies in Brussels, I lived in a community in South India studying Yoga, different dance forms and massage therapies and baking pizza. Couple of years later I returned to Brussels and open a yoga studio where I thought meditation, yoga and Soul Motion. Then I closed the studio and spent a year in South America studying animistic relationship to the Earth and explore the world of plant medicine. I eventually decided to come to San Francisco to study somatic therapy. For most of that time, I felt like I was walking blind, guided by something I couldn’t name. I was following my guts because my brain until then only lead me to misery. Now, I know what I was looking for because I found it. I found out what it felt like to belong, to have purpose, to let go of my guard while remaining in my power.

This is the sort of learning I support clients to have while in a session with me. No need to go on a pilgrimage around the world!